"Father forgive them..."

'Father forgive them for they know not what they do' this was Jesus' words when he was on the cross...
Can we say the same when people do bad things to us? We could but it's very hard for us to do thats why we need God's help to do it. It's almost impossible for us to forgive someone who has hurt us bad. If it were a small thing yes we may forgive our friends, but when it's like a sword peircing through your heart.. The pain is almost unbearable. You feel betrayed and hurt sometimes you feel used espescially when it's someone whom you trust a lot like your best friend or closest friend. They may or may not consciously do it. Sometimes they don't even know that what they did hurt you. Many times we think to ourselves that. I'll never forgive him or her for what he or she did' but what Jesus went through was way worse and far beyond what we can experience. Immagine, what would it feel like if you created something, spending all you time and putting all your effort into making it something beautiful. You sacrifice your time for other things to pay attention to it to make it happen. But when it's done it goes away on it's own not even gratefull that you've created it and presume that it came from someplace else. And one day it comes back to destroy you. You've spentyour whole life creating it your hard work and sweat into it and that's what you get in return?.
But He chose to forgive us for what we did, putting him on that cross. He took the chance just so that you may realize one day that how much He loves you enough to die even die for you.

some quotes

"the pride of one man can cause another to fall"

"Pride is the complete anti-God state. Pride is the chief cause of misery in this world! As long as you are proud, you can't know God. Pride is spiritual cancer!. It eats up love,contentment and even common sense"
~C.S. Lewis

"I thought I trusted the rope until it mattered to me whether it would bear me"

~C.S. Lewis

Someone Kicked my Butt

There's no where i can run no matter how hard i try. It's my nature to stay.
Thanks for those who prayed for me :)
what can i say even though it's not fully recovered but it's anexperienced to be learned from not to be repeated. It's because my loyalty is to Him not to them. Still don't expect the same out of me from before.

Do I have to go through this test?(Why do i have to?)

why must i? i can't take this anymore.. being pressed from all sides. Everything is just falling down on me. I feel like giving up already and leave. but I keep pushing on and hanging on.. It's the last straw. The weight is on my last finger hanging on the cliff. I'm about to drop, i'm about to give up. Isn't there anyone out there to help me. I'm close to cursing, close to burning. This test is overwhelming me. My faith is on the last thread. I'm confused, there is certainly NO one i can trust. Whoever at all there is no one. Men cannot be trusted. They pick you up and leave you somewhere in the dark alone and then it's your fault the leave you there and for what? for all you've done of coursewhat's right they take credit for, what's wrong you take all the blame for. That's so righteous. Yeah, that's great it's totally perfect. Never again will this happen. I swear i will not let this happen again EVER!! and i won't do anything ever again.

What can i say? Been failed so many times, in fact too many times. Why do i make the same mistake of thinking that people out there would help me? why do i keep believing something that's not true? why?
You ask me why i say this? i say why do you care? All you say, everything you say are empty. They mean nothing to me anymore. So why do you even ever care anymore? i've had enough of your speaches. I can't bear another pain, another shame, another...
I might give up soon when i can't take it anymore. I don't care what happens to the rest. Why should I? they don't. So WHY the heck should I? But there are still some who can be saved. Don't make the same mistake to them or see them gone.

se ci è chiunque per indurre la gente a girare via dal dio è

Se ci è chiunque per indurre la gente a girare via dal dio ècristiani essi stessi. perchè?
è semplicemente perché il senso fa occasionalmente le cose. Sono stato venuto a mancare tante volte, Non posso prenderlo più. Mi chiedete perchè? la risposta è semplice. perché che freaking lo hanno lasciato giù. Qualcosa per loro e che cosa ottengo nel ritorno? non freaking niente, non desidero giurare qui. E preferibilmente devo pagare il perso di qualcosa nella vite dellachiesa questo!! ed è la mia vite del haha "di responsabilità" voi tutti. Ciò è mai l'ultima volta che sto andando FARE QUALCHE COSA AFFATTOper la chiesa.