pebble thoughts

Sun rise in the break of dawn
Where ever you've gone
I know you're alone
The promises i made
were meant to last
though the memories
seem like dust
my thoughts of you will stay the same

Skies turn grey from blue
Waves crash on shores of rocks
from dawn to dusk
our love will last
till end time comes
or one of us gets taken away
while time permits my trust
these are my pebble thoughts

winds change without our knowing
life can be harsh
on us we know
the sanctity of life
still remains true
and one day
when it breaks down
it's all up to us to hold our trust

love can be tested
still i'll never back down
one step at a time
i'll make you mine
and for that ever, we'll find


words by jamest 01:46 sep 25 2008

ramblings of the empty hearted. souless maybe?

so.. tell me the meaning of life.
well life is kinda hard to describe. there's always mountains and valleys we need to scale.

the view from the mountain is magnificent. but to get there. thats the hard part. isnt it?
yeah. as hard as it may seem when you reach up there, the prize is just rewarding. as easy at the valley would be, i mean yeah you'll see the beauty if it right in front of you but the vision is close if not too far, but the mountains.. you'll see everything

what then do we say of men spawning evil in their cores? of evil men of evil deeds that know no bounds, tied in the hearts of those closest to us. how then do we save them? the lost, the broken and the damned?
the lonely?

now lets talk about a girl. story of a girl perhaps?
maybe

tell me. how would you describe her?
awesome person, fine person to talk with.. with some depths perhaps?

she's found love. and that resonates. gives hope in a way. that, that ill natured feeling is somehow and someways still out there. truth often comes from the least expected places. so if love is real. where the hell is it? not here in me that is.
hope? oh that which play us so many a times. when exactly do we see it? do we feel it? or do we understand the true meaning of the word? truth is hope is never too far away yet sometimes we just can't reach it.. she's the valley he's the mountain. a perfect blend that causes it all to resonate.

aight. thats all for now. thank you for tuning in to the mindless ramblings of me,
and me. peace out.

conversations of the sages 2008 09 05

Larut

Dewa - Larut
Mungkin aku pernah juga..
Merasakan cinta..
Tapi tak pernah..seindah ini..

Mungkin aku juga pernah
Merasakan rindu..
Tapi tak pernah..Sedalam ini

Mungkin kamu takkan pernah..
percaya..
Bahwa sesungguhnya..
aku t'lah terjatuh.

Chorus:
Kuakui aku telah larut
Larut ke dalam
Kamu yang kucintai

One of my fav songs from indo.. :D

Creator God

You made the stars
The sand on the shores
Your hands formed the earth
and made me from dust
You spoke words into life
Your breath springs forth new things

And above all You made me alive
Brought me new life

When I come before your face
I want to lift You high
In this place
Lord I long to see you come
Dwell in this place
Lord in this place
My creator God

Freedom

I find myself in solitude
when the weekend comes
The things that matter seem
nothing more than the past
Yet the past predicts the future
The more i struggle
The more i grow dissatisfied
As night draws closer
i grow weak and tired
where's the help that was promised me?

* I scream!! Why am i forsaken?
Is it true i'm never alone?
Ev'rything shows i'm broken
i'm vulnarable and open
Yet i look to find reason
of why i'm alive and breathing
the reason i still live
in my search for freedom

i look to constitute at end
the things that comes by
All that matters before
brings worthlessness than value
though past predicts future
destiny's in our hand
and time is what's spent
As the day comes to end
the light of tomorrow shines
as new hope brings a new laughter

where can i run to?
what can i hope for?
in search of the freedom
that lies beyond all measure
that words man speak means nothing

words by jamest 2008 2310-005-007

Beautiful Song

really meaningful and sad.. and true

unlucky

I'm standing at the corner
My backs against the wall
I think that you are fine
wishin you were mine
Thinkin bout the things we'd do
imagine what life would be....
with you---
(but)

We weren't meant to be
Your love's too cold for me
I can't get your heart
You not even playing hard
to get
i'm just so not meant for this
just unlucky

at the prom from my corner
you seem to be alone
like you're looking for someone
was gonna make a move
then you turned around and smiled
i thought you were lookin at me
then he came (i guess)


_in progress
words by jamest 2008 0213-005-005

where i confide

The heavens so grey,
The moonlight fails to shine,
The earth's light aren't like a day,
darkness around is all i find

yet behind those clouds i find a line,
the silver streak in the sky,
the grace i receive can't be defined,
i can't help but ask why?

In the clouds i try to hide,
yet it turns our there's no place i can confide,
the alleys wet and cold,
the sidewalks scenes draws me old,

wishing things that won't happen,
the sea to turn red maybe?
it's like the day the sun shines over me
but the clouds stay and never return,

if only i could tell the good lord how i feel,
but hey doesn't he already know?
oh well guess thats what i know,
he hold everything and does it well.


where i confide by James (c) 2008 0110-004-029

what it means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

through time, the wait

if only i could find you..
I know you're out there..
Somewhere in that mass..
you're the glitter in the mess..

but where can i find you..
are you really out there..
someday will i find you..
one day in that big mass..

time flies by so quickly..
memories fade as the sunsets each day..
clouds billow so quickly..
as the wind carries them through the air..

the clock keeps ticking..
even when the moonlight shines so brightly..
everyday the wish for time to stop..
that beautiful moment to stay..

as waves hit the sand by the sea..
land is washed away..
as the clock keeps ticking each day..
life is being taken away..

all i wish to find you soon..
to find the glitter in the sea..
to share a moments so true..
under the moonlight so beautiful..
before the day gets too cold and we grow too old..

School that Rocks

Hmm.. I was trying to find some pictures i could throw in but i just couldn't find those that i thought would fit in. Well it's been a while since i've had time to sit in front of my computer and not know what to do and finally thought "maybe i should update my blog".

Just an update on my life.. I've started school once again after a whole year of hectic working schedule. I'm kinda excited actually that I've finally started doing something that I've looked forward to for a long time or at least 6 months. It's been the passion of my heart to learn more about God and i'm finally able to do that.

Two weeks into BTS and two reading materials already or actually it's only been a week of class. The first week was more of a retreat so it wasn't really assignments and all but more of a rest in God.

My name stained

The consequence of actions is the mark that is left after it's taken. Mine hasn't been too impressive nor is it sparing. The name that has been a mark of innocence is no more for the actions taken have been too deep a ravine of consequence. The name that has been a mark of reputation and discipline is no more and I've only myself to blame.

Why is it so, that people see you for what you've done and not what you can do. A spectacle of prejudice is put on each time someone has done something wrong. Their names are stained by their past actions though it's only but one mistake, the whole world knows and he's never to be forgotten for that. Each time someone sees the man they'll say "oh isn't he the guy that did ...."
or "wasn't he the guy that ..." It's a wonder why the negative image stays in peoples thoughts more than the positive. It's the reason why it's so hard for convicts to leave behind their past. The moment a man has been to prison, his chance of getting a well paid job is gone let alone get a job. As soon as an employer sees his records the smile on their faces turns to that of a disgust, looking down at the man who's trying to start a new life trying to support his loved ones. Not given the chance and missing the chance are two different things. when he is not given the chance to start a new, to find a source of provision he is forced to go back to where he was because it's the only way he knows that will help him to survive.

The question remains that why can't people be given a second chance. Have you not been given a second chance in your life? When you were a child, were you not numerous times given a second chance? a third chance? If only we could see the potential and not the mistakes.

untitled

do you see things in black and white?
or do you see if full of color like those of the flowers?
have you seen the beautiful fields of green
or are you surrounded in the urban grey sky of tox

Is the sea blue to you
or do you see black waters in rivers by
do you see blue skys and rain
or what you see are grey skies and poison drops

will the earth last till the dawn of tomorrow
or will it turn dark and dead in the near future
will it be tomorrow?
or it tomorrow already here?

~dedicated to pLaNet eaRtH, by James (c) 2007 2152-010-002

black and white

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Let God speak

"..let God speak and i will listen.."
When God speaks do we listen? Are we expecting Him to speak to us? or are we prepared to listen to what He's telling us? Many times He's speaking to us but we ignore His voice. When He calls us we say we're too busy. But when we're in need we expect Him to answer us imeidately.

The severity of it is to the extent of negligence toward the things around us. A man lying in the street asking for help, we turn our heads and walk the other way. Our neighbor who's always being annoying toward us but today is in need, we ignore him and say he deserves it. The list of it goes on and on yet we keep asking God to give us a chance to show His love. When we ask for patience, do you think He gives us patience or does He give us the chance to be patient? or when we ask for kindness, does he give us kindness or does he gives us the chance to practice it. So be diligent and aware so when we're given the chance we see it and grab hold of it.

The Choice Is Yours!

If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in. - Revelation 3:20 NIV

Max Lucado writes: "Ever wonder why there were two crosses next to Christ? Or why Jesus was in the centre? Those two crosses symbolise one of God's greatest gifts - the gift of choice. The two criminals have much in common; convicted by the same system, condemned to the same death, surrounded by the same crowd, and equally close to the same Christ. In fact, they began with the same sarcasm; the two criminals each said cruel things to Jesus. But one changed. He said, 'Jesus, remember me when you come into Your kingdom.' Jesus answered him, 'I tell you the truth, today you will be with Me in paradise' (Lk 23:42-43 NIV). While we rejoice at the thief who changed, we dare not forget the one who didn't. There are times when God sends thunder to stir us. There are times when God sends blessings to lure us. But there are times when God sends nothing but silence, as He honours us with the freedom to choose where we spend eternity. We have never been given a greater privilege than that of choice. Think about the thief who repented. Though we know little about him, we know this: in the end, all his bad choices were redeemed by a solitary good choice. He chose Christ!"

No matter how many bad choices you may have made in your past, you can be redeemed by one good choice - the choice to give your life to Christ and follow Him. Will you make that choice now? If you do you'll never regret it.

Tian Xia Wu Shuang

very nice song

this is my life.. is it all i dreamt it would be?

Can't close my eyes in the middle of the night when i'm alone. Everything turns dark and dull when the lights go off and there's no one to turn to. Years have passed since the last time a day spent with someone i could share things with. It's been for a while if not too long since the memory of sharing a day and memories with someone called special. How the wishing of that day to come again lingers through the words that come out and as the clock strikes every second though not too desperately but the frank facts is the sudden thought of it dawning creates a realization that i'm not coping too well with the single notion of life. Having no one to hold dear and call precious is an irony or distress.

Been about 4 years since i've been out with someone special. How does it feel to not have that feeling of missing someone? or how is the toture of feeling like you're missing something but never being able to find it?. Sick and tired of being told where to go and where to be. feeling weak from being told who i am and who i'm supposed to be. Oh God when i be put off from this misery?

Treasure Life

Life is precious and it's always running out it's like a hourglass thats constantly moving to the other side. some hourglass just break into pieces and some run out of time faster than others..
The past few months have all seen loved ones and friends pass on. Yes it's' part of life cycle but yet sometimes we find it hard to accept and to let go of that person whom we love and treasure.
So it's time to look back at our lives and make right our ways of living thtis short life. Make full use of the opportunities given and use your talents wisely so when the time comes we'll be rewarded by our father in heaven.