Where Do I Go From Here?

It's been a while since I've done anything significant in my life, like do something and stick with it. I'm so tired of the many choices I have that's so much just confusing me. I don't know the direction as to where i should go. I sure don't want to stop learning but where will be my classroom? and who will be my teachers? Do i take a step out of this place or do i stay? All these questions have been thrown each day in hope for an answer but all i get is stillness, quietness, it's deafening if you ask, and it's making me insane. Even my communication skill has gone out the window. All i ever say just pissed people off or puts people down. Is there nothing that i do that will build people up? am i that despicable? I just wish that I would be mute if that's all i can do. I don't want to spend my life casting spit on people. If I have simply offended anyone without a thought I'm truly sorry. I guess i need to leave this place if it would make a difference. If it would bring healing. If only I would be forgotten for the stain that i have placed.